Im afraid of time. I seem to try to run away from it, but it always catches up to me. Its pointless, really. But i'm a stubborn fool.
I've never blogged.. This is new really. I was hoping that someone would read this, and listen to what I have to say.
Trouble. Thats what my family thinks i am. I think I'm a hassle to them. They can throw me out whenever. Im waiting.
I want him to stay with me. Forever. My first boyfriend.. Wanting him to stay with me forever, I think people would laugh at me if I said that outloud. They would think: What a silly teenage girl, she doesn't know what shes talking about, they wont stay together, afterall hes going to college in a year and she will be left behind.
Being left behind. It seems to happen to me alot. I cant catch up.
Marriage. I already think about it.
Im selfish, I want to bring all of my loves with me. But I know I cant hold on forever. That just tears me apart.
My biggest fear is being alone and being without him. Its pathetic. Not being able to surive without another person being there for me. But, its true for me at the moment.
I want to become a stronger person.
I want to catch up with time, and with the ones I love most.
